6 am thoughts in my Hong Kong hotel room – I can’t believe it. I’ve just ruptured my other Achilles. In Hong Kong of all places no less. I mean, if you’re going to pop your Achilles, might as well do it on the other side of the world, right? I guess rupturing my left one in Colombia in 2017 wasn’t far enough, so I had to do my right in Hong Kong But … again??
The thought of going through that process of coming back again & how tough of a journey it was the first time makes me want to cry for the millionth time today. I’m pretty sure I have no moisture left in my body at this point.
How could this happen again? What did I do to deserve this? I felt like for the first time in my life I’ve actually been taking care of myself across all aspects- mind, body, & spirit. My body is healthy. My mind is healthy. My nervous system is regulated. I am playing the best squash of my career & truly LOVING it again. How could I have ruptured my Achilles again? I’ve been trying to wrap my head around the fact that I’ve just done my other Achilles & how or why this could have happened, but I just don’t have any answers.
Thinking about it makes me cry some more. I’ve always believed that everything happens for a reason. Over the past few months, I’ve been working to try & see myself internally as a champion that wasn’t solely based on an external tournament result or ranking. I thought that if I just won a Platinum title, people would view me as a champion. I could finally validate myself as a champion. But I’ve realized that I am so much more than a result or a ranking. It’s taken me some time to realize that people don’t see me as a champion, or love me based on my external achievements, but for who I am as a person & everything I’ve overcome throughout my career & shared with you all.
When I tore my left Achilles in 2017, I wanted to show people that you could come back stronger than before from a horrible injury like that. I shared a lot of my comeback journey from the highs to the lows with the hopes to inspire others who were also going through a similar experience. Well, I guess that comeback story was so good the first time that the universe decided it was time for a sequel! Haha I don’t know the reason yet as to why I tore my right Achilles last night, but what I do know is that I’m going to come back stronger… again.
Because I am a champion. And that’s what champions do. They keep showing up no matter how tough life gets & they find a way through I am truly blown away by the amount of messages I’ve received in the last 24 hours. I can feel the love from all over the world & I cannot thank you all enough for the love & support I look forward to sharing my story of my second comeback journey with you all because I know there are others out there who are struggling & might need a little bit of hope & inspiration.
I also know that everybody loves a good comeback story & I’m never one to stay knocked down from a setback. So get ready for another epic comeback story because Chicken Leg: Part 2 is coming in hot!!
Love
Amanda
